[ At least he's living his best unlife as much as possible before then.
He'll draw in a breath that probably sounds like a gasp as he's tucked against him, and then slowly he'll wrap his arms around Ayabe to hold him tight. Closing his eyes as he just relaxes into this. So this is an actual hug. ]
[ He can feel that rare smile, and his own lips lift up against Ayabe. He can get lost in this feeling for a bit longer because he can't really think of anything else.
It's peaceful just like this. ]
The only time I felt like that was... [ Napping with Chuuya. He doesn't finish that statement though. ]
[ He doesn't finish the statement, so Ayabe mentally completes it with "back when I was in the mafia," the same as Chuuya's claim of the last time he was happy. It's the life Ayabe wants to take them away from, idly stroking Dazai's head, combing his fingers through his hair. He'd like to let them have those happy memories, but show them life could be happier. ]
... Is it still the only time? It'd be nice if one day, you could look back at this, and say it for this too.
[ It must be interesting to touch with those bandages up top.
It's Ayabe's words that lets him know he thinks that he thinks it's a different time. There's a quiet laugh that probable feel warm against Ayabe as turns his head towards the crook of his neck. ]
You're mistaken. It's only at this place that I could feel those things.
[ His safe and secure memories happened in a murder mansion where he turned into a fox demon. ]
[ You're wrong? Murder mansion should be the last place he feels these things, unless Dazai is talking about like... contrast, or something. Which in that case he's still wrong, you shouldn't need a life full of danger to be made to feel safe. ]
It's not going to happen. You see, I'm walking away from my happiness before it can be taken away from me again. Besides, neither of you will have any time for me.
Says who? Besides, neither of us are going anywhere, so what makes you think happiness will be "taken away"?
[ He won't have time, though, that's true. Not even for Chuuya. Ayabe's going to go home and go to class like a good student and go to student council meetings and go back to the dorm to do his manager duties and breaks are reserved for hanging out with his family. Chuuya and Dazai will have to spend time with each other in his stead. ]
[ Terrible. Ayabe really should just break his legs and make it a real kidnapping. Hopefully Brilith will follow through in their conversation later, but for now, Ayabe just frowns at the top of Dazai's stupid bandaged head. ]
There's nothing I can do to change your mind?
[ Not like he cares. It's going to be a kidnapping. ]
Chuuya and I plan to stop by there first, anyways. To get some of his things.
[ So it's not like the kidnapping plan is shot if Dazai manages to slip out first, because the two of them will be right on his heels. This is all on the assumption that their worlds are one and the same, though, so when Ayabe realizes otherwise and the fact that his family might not even exist if he follows Chuuya, he's going to throw a fit lmao ]
Are you sure you want to change my mind? You would be making a deal with the devil.
[ He's a shit and he knows it.
He's also getting a little sleepy just like that. You don't need to sleep in deadland, but being this close to Ayabe again and on their bed is reminding him of sleep time.
Though the conversation turning towards them going back to Yokohama to get Chuuya's things gets a single brow to raise up. ]
What would he want to collect from- [ A pause and then something clicks into place. ] Ah, it has to be that. He's going to have a hard time getting them.
[ But Ayabe would be the fool to make that sort of deal, yeah. He shifts a little, trying to see Dazai's face, but that's proving to be impossible so he settles back again. ]
It's just a file or something. I'll be there to help.
[ He will not. Chuuya told him to stay put somewhere else because Ayabe is under the impression that Chuuya is going up to somebody's desk and pulling a manila folder out of a drawer and walking away. ]
[ Don't see his face. There's something close to a disappointed sigh as he starts to shift, but it'll quiet again as soon as Ayabe is settling back in. It's stupid and illogical, but he's good like this. ]
He's a moron and you're also a moron if you think it'll be that easy. [ The gears his in mind are racing as he thinks about different scenarios. ]
Only executives can look at those files and Mori- the boss is keeping them up in his office hidden to make sure Chuuya isn't tempted to steal them. We'll have to try a tactic he wouldn't see coming...
[ A tactic nobody would see coming: walking straight into the office and pulling open the drawers.
He doesn't miss the "we," but he doesn't call Dazai out on it either, instead choosing to rest the side of his face on Dazai's head so he can do the thing where he smiles a little to himself and thinks Dazai doesn't know. ]
That sounds complicated... Is there a lot of security around the office? I'd bet. It would take at least one party to distract, while the other infiltrates, wouldn't it?
[ He can feel that smile. That's two smiles in a single convo.
Just going to ignore the reason why he might be smiling because he has to figure a plan out that doesn't lead to Ayabe getting killed to keep Chuuya in the Mafia. ]
There's cameras outside of the offices and armed guards. While he's sure he has Chuuya's loyalty, he will have a plan in mind in case Chuuya betrays us and tries to make off with the files. You both probably shouldn't go any where near the building, or they would kill you and torture him.
You've watched too many movies. I can go in and out of there without raising suspicion.
[ Don't ask him why. ]
I'll slip in when he's busy, memorize the content of the files, and then write them down for him. I'll hand them over to you two, and then you can be on your way.
What? If it's so easy, why didn't Chuuya just ask you to do this.
[ He could have escaped! so easily!! ]
If you do something like this, you'll be found as a traitor, you know. You told me how the mafia deals with traitors, so there's no way we're leaving you behind if that's the plan.
Chuuya might not have thought about it. Besides, it's not like we're actually friends.
[ They are ??? coworkers ]
He won't ever guess or know. He may assume Chuuya is biding his time or is intending on finding another way to gain the information. I'm the one possibility he wouldn't ever guess. [ a pause ] He also has other plans in store for me.
[ Mori keeps giving him lessons in leadership or asks him to figure things out is a huge indicator as to what path he has lined up for Dazai. ]
I think- no, he's made it clear already. He's planning to groom me to be his right hand. He might even have plans for me to take over the group some time in the future. I don't know why he thinks I'll just go along, especially after he's prevented my death numerous of times in the last year.
[ He picked someone who was suicidal to be his witness, and now his eventual replacement.
Shifting himself into Ayabe more because he doesn't want to even see what kind of face the other will make here. He has an idea, and he's already done with his misplaced need to take care of him. ]
[ It's obviously a frown on his face, but Dazai doesn't have to see it- he can feel it in the way Ayabe's arms tighten a little around him, with the way his hand curls on the fabric over Dazai's back. ]
At least he did that for you...
[ Saving Dazai's life despite him not wanting it. Ayabe can't hate the boss entirely, if only for this one thing. ]
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Date: 2020-04-01 03:49 am (UTC)He'll draw in a breath that probably sounds like a gasp as he's tucked against him, and then slowly he'll wrap his arms around Ayabe to hold him tight. Closing his eyes as he just relaxes into this. So this is an actual hug. ]
It's warm.
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Date: 2020-04-01 04:02 am (UTC)...Yeah, it's warm.
[ Like this, he's murmuring into Dazai's hair, and like this, he smiles a little too, because Dazai can't see. ]
It's supposed to be: warm and comforting. A safe feeling.
i would have to tap into fanart for normal smiles for him
Date: 2020-04-01 04:45 am (UTC)It's peaceful just like this. ]
The only time I felt like that was... [ Napping with Chuuya. He doesn't finish that statement though. ]
what does it say about Dazai who doesn't smile normally in canon....
Date: 2020-04-01 01:45 pm (UTC)... Is it still the only time? It'd be nice if one day, you could look back at this, and say it for this too.
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Date: 2020-04-01 03:17 pm (UTC)It's Ayabe's words that lets him know he thinks that he thinks it's a different time. There's a quiet laugh that probable feel warm against Ayabe as turns his head towards the crook of his neck. ]
You're mistaken. It's only at this place that I could feel those things.
[ His safe and secure memories happened in a murder mansion where he turned into a fox demon. ]
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Date: 2020-04-01 05:04 pm (UTC)[ You're wrong? Murder mansion should be the last place he feels these things, unless Dazai is talking about like... contrast, or something. Which in that case he's still wrong, you shouldn't need a life full of danger to be made to feel safe. ]
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Date: 2020-04-01 05:31 pm (UTC)Are you saying I'm wrong because you think I'll find it some where else? You're really optimistic, Re-i-to.
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Date: 2020-04-01 05:43 pm (UTC)That's exactly what I'm saying. I'm being realistic, not optimistic.
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Date: 2020-04-01 05:54 pm (UTC)It's not going to happen. You see, I'm walking away from my happiness before it can be taken away from me again. Besides, neither of you will have any time for me.
[ Spend. Time. With. Your. BF. ]
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Date: 2020-04-01 06:00 pm (UTC)[ He won't have time, though, that's true. Not even for Chuuya. Ayabe's going to go home and go to class like a good student and go to student council meetings and go back to the dorm to do his manager duties and breaks are reserved for hanging out with his family. Chuuya and Dazai will have to spend time with each other in his stead. ]
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Date: 2020-04-01 06:10 pm (UTC)Says you. You're taking Chuuya home, right? While I'm going back to the Port Mafia.
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Date: 2020-04-01 06:15 pm (UTC)There's nothing I can do to change your mind?
[ Not like he cares. It's going to be a kidnapping. ]
Chuuya and I plan to stop by there first, anyways. To get some of his things.
[ So it's not like the kidnapping plan is shot if Dazai manages to slip out first, because the two of them will be right on his heels. This is all on the assumption that their worlds are one and the same, though, so when Ayabe realizes otherwise and the fact that his family might not even exist if he follows Chuuya, he's going to throw a fit lmao ]
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Date: 2020-04-01 06:43 pm (UTC)[ He's a shit and he knows it.
He's also getting a little sleepy just like that. You don't need to sleep in deadland, but being this close to Ayabe again and on their bed is reminding him of sleep time.
Though the conversation turning towards them going back to Yokohama to get Chuuya's things gets a single brow to raise up. ]
What would he want to collect from- [ A pause and then something clicks into place. ] Ah, it has to be that. He's going to have a hard time getting them.
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Date: 2020-04-01 06:52 pm (UTC)[ But Ayabe would be the fool to make that sort of deal, yeah. He shifts a little, trying to see Dazai's face, but that's proving to be impossible so he settles back again. ]
It's just a file or something. I'll be there to help.
[ He will not. Chuuya told him to stay put somewhere else because Ayabe is under the impression that Chuuya is going up to somebody's desk and pulling a manila folder out of a drawer and walking away. ]
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Date: 2020-04-01 07:01 pm (UTC)He's a moron and you're also a moron if you think it'll be that easy. [ The gears his in mind are racing as he thinks about different scenarios. ]
Only executives can look at those files and Mori- the boss is keeping them up in his office hidden to make sure Chuuya isn't tempted to steal them. We'll have to try a tactic he wouldn't see coming...
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Date: 2020-04-01 07:09 pm (UTC)He doesn't miss the "we," but he doesn't call Dazai out on it either, instead choosing to rest the side of his face on Dazai's head so he can do the thing where he smiles a little to himself and thinks Dazai doesn't know. ]
That sounds complicated... Is there a lot of security around the office? I'd bet. It would take at least one party to distract, while the other infiltrates, wouldn't it?
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Date: 2020-04-01 07:15 pm (UTC)Just going to ignore the reason why he might be smiling because he has to figure a plan out that doesn't lead to Ayabe getting killed to keep Chuuya in the Mafia. ]
There's cameras outside of the offices and armed guards. While he's sure he has Chuuya's loyalty, he will have a plan in mind in case Chuuya betrays us and tries to make off with the files. You both probably shouldn't go any where near the building, or they would kill you and torture him.
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Date: 2020-04-01 07:23 pm (UTC)Ayabe to literally everybody else: (:
Terrible. ]
Cameras can be hacked and guards can be distracted...
[ He's seen spy movies. Which are literally his only point of reference for something like this. ]
How are we supposed to get the files without being in the building? Is there any reason your boss would ever take them out of the building?
[ What if they... set the building on fire... ]
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Date: 2020-04-01 07:27 pm (UTC)[ Don't ask him why. ]
I'll slip in when he's busy, memorize the content of the files, and then write them down for him. I'll hand them over to you two, and then you can be on your way.
[ Mori wouldn't see Dazai helping at all. ]
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Date: 2020-04-01 07:39 pm (UTC)[ He could have escaped! so easily!! ]
If you do something like this, you'll be found as a traitor, you know. You told me how the mafia deals with traitors, so there's no way we're leaving you behind if that's the plan.
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Date: 2020-04-01 07:46 pm (UTC)[ They are ??? coworkers ]
He won't ever guess or know. He may assume Chuuya is biding his time or is intending on finding another way to gain the information. I'm the one possibility he wouldn't ever guess. [ a pause ] He also has other plans in store for me.
[ Mori keeps giving him lessons in leadership or asks him to figure things out is a huge indicator as to what path he has lined up for Dazai. ]
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Date: 2020-04-01 07:53 pm (UTC)Which are? Would he forgive you for helping Chuuya like this? I'm not about to trade your safety away for his, if there's a way to guarantee both.
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Date: 2020-04-01 07:59 pm (UTC)I think- no, he's made it clear already. He's planning to groom me to be his right hand. He might even have plans for me to take over the group some time in the future. I don't know why he thinks I'll just go along, especially after he's prevented my death numerous of times in the last year.
[ He picked someone who was suicidal to be his witness, and now his eventual replacement.
Shifting himself into Ayabe more because he doesn't want to even see what kind of face the other will make here. He has an idea, and he's already done with his misplaced need to take care of him. ]
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Date: 2020-04-02 02:23 am (UTC)At least he did that for you...
[ Saving Dazai's life despite him not wanting it. Ayabe can't hate the boss entirely, if only for this one thing. ]
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Date: 2020-04-02 02:47 am (UTC)Are you actually glad to have met me?
[ Wow Ayabe. ]
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