It's not just the danger. Working with Chuuya made me realize that working so close to death and raw emotions makes life actually interesting. [ A pause as he taps the quote Ayabe wrote down. ]
[ It makes Ayabe frown, though, alarm bells in the back of his mind because death and raw emotions should not be interesting— especially to somebody who doesn't feel them in the same capacity as most other people do, if that's what the weird sense of calm he gets from Dazai is. Not calm. More like... the lack of anything. ]
This place... everything that's going on. Is this interesting to you?
[ Don't do this to him, he's dumb, what does that meeeeeeeaann
Also please address the whole not interested in living thing? Dazai?? ]
So, what, the mystery of this place? This... bond thing? You sure felt some interested playing twenty questions, like earlier when you picked up glass and cut your hand and lied to me about it.
[ Aha. That sort of mystery that Ayabe's been wracking his brain on trying to figure out, but like nearly every other peculiarity in this place, he has to chalk it up to being ~*~*magic*~*~ ]
Maybe 45 is right and this is some virtual simulation thing.
[ BEST CASE SCENARIO, RIGHT THERE
He also raises a hand, though, gesturing at Dazai's hand. ]
If you don't get hurt, nobody will make a fuss over your wounds. I can't help but worry for you when I see them, that's the natural reaction.
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Date: 2020-03-09 02:18 am (UTC)[ Fifteen!! First of all, why are they in any sort of organized crime????? He's crying inside, please stay in school ]
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Date: 2020-03-09 02:47 am (UTC)I'm the one who recruited him after I joined up.
[ Recruited or push some dominoes until Chuuya was given little choice but to join. Same difference. ]
While most of the organization is full of adults, we also have members that are younger than we are.
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Date: 2020-03-09 02:58 am (UTC)Why...? That's not a life people should be in. It's dangerous, and there are better options... You can leave now that you're older.
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Date: 2020-03-09 03:05 am (UTC)I know it's dangerous. That's why it's appealing towards someone like me. While Chuuya has his own reasons for joining.
[ Reasons outside of Dazai trapping him into it actually. That's for his partner to share though. ]
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Date: 2020-03-09 03:06 am (UTC)If you want something dangerous, become a motorcyclist... Join a biker gang, not the mafia.
Cw: Suicide idealization light???? I can change this if you need me to
Date: 2020-03-09 03:15 am (UTC)In that moment, life was worth living.
I'm good with these topics! o7
Date: 2020-03-09 03:23 am (UTC)This place... everything that's going on. Is this interesting to you?
okay o7
Date: 2020-03-09 03:41 am (UTC)Are you wondering if I'm interested in the murders or wondering if I'm no longer interested in living?
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Date: 2020-03-09 03:52 am (UTC)Both.
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Date: 2020-03-09 04:01 am (UTC)Sometimes something here does interest me, but it comes and goes.
[ Take that whatever way you want, Ayabe ]
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Date: 2020-03-09 04:06 am (UTC)Also please address the whole not interested in living thing? Dazai?? ]
So, what, the mystery of this place? This... bond thing? You sure felt some interested playing twenty questions, like earlier when you picked up glass and cut your hand and lied to me about it.
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Date: 2020-03-09 04:28 am (UTC)[ He did wake up to smelling death and decay in the room he stayed in
Then he'll lift up his hand that he cut before, before wiggling his fingers. ]
I don't like people making a fuss over my wounds.
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Date: 2020-03-09 04:36 am (UTC)Maybe 45 is right and this is some virtual simulation thing.
[ BEST CASE SCENARIO, RIGHT THERE
He also raises a hand, though, gesturing at Dazai's hand. ]
If you don't get hurt, nobody will make a fuss over your wounds. I can't help but worry for you when I see them, that's the natural reaction.
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Date: 2020-03-13 09:16 pm (UTC)[ Also hes just going to look at his hand...
then lick where the cut is. ]
Getting hurt here is inevitable. Maybe you'll learn to make less of a fuss.