Catchall: Ayabe

[shortfornow]

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[kazokun]

What? If it's so easy, why didn't Chuuya just ask you to do this.

[ He could have escaped! so easily!! ]

If you do something like this, you'll be found as a traitor, you know. You told me how the mafia deals with traitors, so there's no way we're leaving you behind if that's the plan.

[shortfornow]

Chuuya might not have thought about it. Besides, it's not like we're actually friends.

[ They are ??? coworkers ]

He won't ever guess or know. He may assume Chuuya is biding his time or is intending on finding another way to gain the information. I'm the one possibility he wouldn't ever guess. [ a pause ] He also has other plans in store for me.

[ Mori keeps giving him lessons in leadership or asks him to figure things out is a huge indicator as to what path he has lined up for Dazai. ]

[kazokun]

[ They are ??? what, he still can't figure out. ]

Which are? Would he forgive you for helping Chuuya like this? I'm not about to trade your safety away for his, if there's a way to guarantee both.

[shortfornow]

[ There's a pause. ]

I think- no, he's made it clear already. He's planning to groom me to be his right hand. He might even have plans for me to take over the group some time in the future. I don't know why he thinks I'll just go along, especially after he's prevented my death numerous of times in the last year.

[ He picked someone who was suicidal to be his witness, and now his eventual replacement.

Shifting himself into Ayabe more because he doesn't want to even see what kind of face the other will make here. He has an idea, and he's already done with his misplaced need to take care of him. ]

[kazokun]

[ It's obviously a frown on his face, but Dazai doesn't have to see it- he can feel it in the way Ayabe's arms tighten a little around him, with the way his hand curls on the fabric over Dazai's back. ]

At least he did that for you...

[ Saving Dazai's life despite him not wanting it. Ayabe can't hate the boss entirely, if only for this one thing. ]

[shortfornow]

[ He breathes in slowly, unsure how to even feel about that. ]/

Are you actually glad to have met me?

[ Wow Ayabe. ]

[kazokun]

Yes.

[ He's glad Dazai is alive and here, okay!! ]

[shortfornow]

Are you sure you haven't hit your head at some point?

[ It's guilt. Guilt and his desire to have someone to take care of. It's still pretty strange for him though ]

[kazokun]

I probably did, but that shouldn't matter. I remember enough.

[ He will not discount the fact that he probably hit his head at some point, though. He sort of got flung down five flights of stairs or something and whatever brain damage he sustained post-mortem shouldn't be negligible. ]

You're annoying and you caused me a lot of grief, but that doesn't mean you're not important to me. My siblings are just like this, and I still love them.

[ HELLA ANNOYING AND CAUSING HIM GRIEF ALL THE TIME ]

[shortfornow]

[ Pfft. Reaching his hand up to card it through Ayabe's hair to feel for any bumps as he leans his head back to try to look at him. His gaze searching for anything off. ]

That sounds more like it. [ A beat ] I don't think I want to be counted as one of your siblings though.

[kazokun]

[ Only because I can't keep injuries, Ayabe's head is unfortunately fine. He'll just give Dazai a weird look that he can't see, because it's strange being on the receiving side of this. ]

You don't want to be my cute little sibling?

[ I had capped this to show Mauyn but back when Dazai was on trial for being the monster, this was me voting while losing my mind ]

[shortfornow]

I don't feel anything.

[ Then he'll just... mess up his hair on purpose. Whoops. ]

No way. That would make the kiss weird.

[ As well as the future romancing of your bf that hasn't happened yet. ]

[kazokun]

[ NO his hair is short enough that it's hard to keep messy anyways, and he just shakes his head to reset it and if he whacks Dazai's face with his bangs in the process he deserves it. ]

Is that the only reason? We can pretend it didn't happen.

[ He would be willing to wipe that kiss from his mind entirely ]

[shortfornow]

[ hair we are getting abused again ]

Reito is so heartless wanting to wipe my first normal kiss like that.

[ So rude.

He will get a little more serious as he finally moves away. ]

I can't play family with you, Reito. I'm not here to replace what you're missing nor do I want to.

[kazokun]

You're not replacing anything.

[ It's addition. He's collecting. ]

[shortfornow]

[ He doesn't want to be in a collection. He's too much of a dramatic binch to be in a sibling harem. ]

Are those the only categories for you? Family love and Chuuya?

[kazokun]

There's you?

[ Does Dazai want to be in his own category?? ]

It's not like I'm categorizing people, anyways.

[shortfornow]

[ Yes, Dazai wants to be in his own category. ]

You are~ You're trying to sibling zone everyone. [ A beat ] Or you're trying to separate yourself from everyone else.

[ Time to analyze Ayabe again ]

[kazokun]

[ His cute little siblings include people who are in their 20's, it's true, but he'll argue otherwise anyways. ]

I am not. I've made four whole friends here, Dazai.

[ He says it like it's such a huge number and that's because it is, it's four more than he was ever supposed to get in a place like this. ]

[shortfornow]

[ you can't mom everyone. ]

Do you consider them your equal? Would you let them take care of you if you were sick or crying?

[ also four whole friends is better than Dazai. Ken said he would like to consider them all friends but he's still ???? at Chuuya and Ayabe is slotting into ??? zone. ]

[kazokun]

[ The three of them can just be ??? to each other, it's fine.

He also frowns, because, lmao no. Whether he's the mom or the onii-chan, there is no equality. ]

If I'm sick or crying, I'm just going to stay in bed and hope nobody bothers me. There's no taking care of needed.

[shortfornow]

[ That's what he thought. ]

What if someone wants to see you sick or crying? What if it would make them happy to take care of you?

[ Dazai might be happy to bully while he's sick but he doesn't apply to this at all. ]

[kazokun]

Who the hell would wish ill will on somebody else just to be able to take care of them? Even I don't do that. You all get in trouble all on your own.

[ In that sort of way, this place has been great! Plenty of opportunity to fuss over people, while on the flip side, Ayabe's been taking relatively good care of himself for the first four solid weeks until Things Happened and he ended up dead. ]

[shortfornow]

[ Ayabe why is your brain like this. ]

I'm not talking about wishing ill on someone. I'm talking about if you would trust any of them with your vulnerable side.

[kazokun]

[ He may or may not have hit his head down five flights of stairs or something ]

That depends on how sick I am.

[ If he's sick enough he might not have a choice ]