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[ He can feel his heart sink despite Dazai saying it to him again and again, not wanting to believe it even when all the evidence is laid out in front of him like this.
"Why?" he wants to ask, but he doesn't want to pry into the reasons- does he need any more of a reason, seeing what he already saw? A splash of blood and a crazed face, the numbness existing from even before.
Ayabe breathes out, placing a hand over the scars on Dazai's arm, like he could cover them and make them have never existed. ]
...Has it been any better here? Is there anything I can do?
"Why?" he wants to ask, but he doesn't want to pry into the reasons- does he need any more of a reason, seeing what he already saw? A splash of blood and a crazed face, the numbness existing from even before.
Ayabe breathes out, placing a hand over the scars on Dazai's arm, like he could cover them and make them have never existed. ]
...Has it been any better here? Is there anything I can do?
[ His eyes widen for a moment, both from his words and his actions. No one really touches him like that.
Then he'll turn his attention quickly to his other arm to pull the bandages off. In case he's wondering, it's the same thing over on the side too. ]
...It's been different here. It's hard to see what makes life worth living at times, but now and then I do actually feel something. It's interesting at times.
Then he'll turn his attention quickly to his other arm to pull the bandages off. In case he's wondering, it's the same thing over on the side too. ]
...It's been different here. It's hard to see what makes life worth living at times, but now and then I do actually feel something. It's interesting at times.
[ Why can't Dazai's non-dominant hand give himself a break /:
But there it is again, that "interesting" that worries Ayabe just as much as the marks on Dazai's arms and neck, where he wishes he could find something else for Dazai to latch onto instead. But in a place like this, bleak as it always is, it's hard. ]
Hold onto those times.
[ Even if it's dangerous, even if Ayabe hates it, no matter what it takes, hold onto it ]
There'll be more, and you'll find new things. I'm sure of it.
But there it is again, that "interesting" that worries Ayabe just as much as the marks on Dazai's arms and neck, where he wishes he could find something else for Dazai to latch onto instead. But in a place like this, bleak as it always is, it's hard. ]
Hold onto those times.
[ Even if it's dangerous, even if Ayabe hates it, no matter what it takes, hold onto it ]
There'll be more, and you'll find new things. I'm sure of it.
[ And there's Ayabe acting concerned and caring.
He lifts his hand, hesitating for a moment. Then he'll reach over to touch Ayabe's cheek lightly. ]
You really like looking out for others, Reito.
[ Letting his hand drop immediately afterwards. His expression changing to something unreadable. ]
Don't worry~ I plan on staying around for a while longer. I have something to aim for at least.
[ He has a bet with Chuuya which... Ayabe probably won't approve of ]
He lifts his hand, hesitating for a moment. Then he'll reach over to touch Ayabe's cheek lightly. ]
You really like looking out for others, Reito.
[ Letting his hand drop immediately afterwards. His expression changing to something unreadable. ]
Don't worry~ I plan on staying around for a while longer. I have something to aim for at least.
[ He has a bet with Chuuya which... Ayabe probably won't approve of ]
[ He blinks in surprise when his face is touched, mild confusion on his face before his brows pinch together a little. ]
It's not as if I enjoy it... You guys being who you are doesn't give me any other choice.
[ Y'all are so concerning!!! Whatever this bet is, it's better Ayabe never find out, probably. ]
It's not as if I enjoy it... You guys being who you are doesn't give me any other choice.
[ Y'all are so concerning!!! Whatever this bet is, it's better Ayabe never find out, probably. ]
[ Pfft. Mild confusion is easier than most of the other reactions he could have gotten from that. ]
Let's face it, even if we weren't like this, you still would be worried. I feel bad for anyone you wind up dating. They would be sharing you with a lot of people.
[ If Ayabe ever dates. ]
Let's face it, even if we weren't like this, you still would be worried. I feel bad for anyone you wind up dating. They would be sharing you with a lot of people.
[ If Ayabe ever dates. ]
[ Ayabe frowns a little more, because dating is about the furthest thing from his mind in murder mansion. He just wants 3244284094 cute little siblings, he doesn't want to date. ]
Don't say it like I'd be sleeping around or something. It'd be different.
[ It would not. Dazai is absolutely right. ]
Don't say it like I'd be sleeping around or something. It'd be different.
[ It would not. Dazai is absolutely right. ]
I'm surprised, Reito! Your mind went immediately to sleeping around.
[ What a perv. And he's going to mischief mode. ]
I was referring to how you would neglect them, while you were busy running around taking care of othes.
[ What a perv. And he's going to mischief mode. ]
I was referring to how you would neglect them, while you were busy running around taking care of othes.
[ He's pushed and he's laughing in response. ]
You're more likely to fall for someone than I am.
[ So it's maybe a 1% chance of happening. ]
Reito is going to be a heart breaker.
You're more likely to fall for someone than I am.
[ So it's maybe a 1% chance of happening. ]
Reito is going to be a heart breaker.
Virtual, huh? That would be less of a headache if it was.
[ Also hes just going to look at his hand...
then lick where the cut is. ]
Getting hurt here is inevitable. Maybe you'll learn to make less of a fuss.
[ Also hes just going to look at his hand...
then lick where the cut is. ]
Getting hurt here is inevitable. Maybe you'll learn to make less of a fuss.
Shut up.
[ He is much more likely to break somebody's arm than their heart, and that's just sad.
Ayabe huffs and stands to get leave the room, because he is GREAT at running away from things he doesn't want to deal with. What happened to helping Dazai with his bandages? He can handle them on his own. ]
[ He is much more likely to break somebody's arm than their heart, and that's just sad.
Ayabe huffs and stands to get leave the room, because he is GREAT at running away from things he doesn't want to deal with. What happened to helping Dazai with his bandages? He can handle them on his own. ]
[ He'll wait until Ayabe gets to the door before calling out to him. ]
You don't want to see what's under the rest of them?
You don't want to see what's under the rest of them?
[ There's a grin there. ]
Are you sure that would be enough for you? I could lie about it again.
Are you sure that would be enough for you? I could lie about it again.
[ That's gay.
He's going to scoot back to the edge of the bed and then wiggle his finger for Ayabe to come over there. ]
You should find out while you have the chance. Who knows when I'll be in a sharing mood again.
He's going to scoot back to the edge of the bed and then wiggle his finger for Ayabe to come over there. ]
You should find out while you have the chance. Who knows when I'll be in a sharing mood again.
Stand over here. You won't be able to see it all from there.
[ Are you now Jingles, Ayabe ]
[ Are you now Jingles, Ayabe ]
[ One step is still too far. So he'll just turn his back to Ayabe and pull off the bandages wrapped around his torso. If he wants to see the front view, he's going to have to move his butt.
He will probably just see some cuts and scrapes on his back, but nothing major. ]
I keep forgetting about this one. Someone tried killing me just before I arrived here.
He will probably just see some cuts and scrapes on his back, but nothing major. ]
I keep forgetting about this one. Someone tried killing me just before I arrived here.
[ All according to plan.
Is it good news or not that he actually has something to show? He's turning around to face him. There's a large, diagonal scar starting towards his shoulder and ends down by his stomach. ]
Someone was trying to silence me with a scythe.
Is it good news or not that he actually has something to show? He's turning around to face him. There's a large, diagonal scar starting towards his shoulder and ends down by his stomach. ]
Someone was trying to silence me with a scythe.
[ we'll have our memories ]
That's a bit of a long story. Are you sure you have the time to hear it all?
[ Weren't you heading out? ]
That's a bit of a long story. Are you sure you have the time to hear it all?
[ Weren't you heading out? ]
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