No, I'm not afraid of that. If I find a reason to live or something that makes life interesting, then I'll give it a try.

If it winds up being just like the last couple of weeks where I'm left alone with my thoughts and everything feeling pointless again... That's what I hate the most.

[ Asch got the brunt of his bullying, but it wasn't quite the same. It's been boring there since all they can do is observe the living. ]