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I mean, yeah? Someday I'd like that, sure. Who wouldn't?
[As soon as the words leave his mouth though, he knows he's saying it to the wrong person.]
[As soon as the words leave his mouth though, he knows he's saying it to the wrong person.]
[ It is, but it's fine. He already had a conversation earlier with someone else about how he's probably no longer human because of how he doesn't feel much. ]
I don't know if I can ever understand that.
[ Look, he's being honest but it's probably a side effect of everything happening and how this week was a lot. ]
Maybe if I practice it.
I don't know if I can ever understand that.
[ Look, he's being honest but it's probably a side effect of everything happening and how this week was a lot. ]
Maybe if I practice it.
...
[What even is with that look? Chuuya just doesn't understand why there's that much darkness in Dazai. Did he really see that much in a year?]
Are you saying you want someone to take you away from the mafia?
[What even is with that look? Chuuya just doesn't understand why there's that much darkness in Dazai. Did he really see that much in a year?]
Are you saying you want someone to take you away from the mafia?
[ Second time he's heard something like that. ]
Maybe before I did. Now I intend on seeing where this path will take me.
[ It's fine. He's fine. ]
Maybe before I did. Now I intend on seeing where this path will take me.
[ It's fine. He's fine. ]
That's kinda scary to think about. You get good at anything you really try to do. How many hearts are you gonna end up breaking by being a flirt?
[Too many, if canon has anything to say about it.]
[Too many, if canon has anything to say about it.]
[Yeah, he totally believes that. Except not really.]
If you don't find what you're looking for, then you should leave the mafia. It's not a place for people to half-ass commitment.
If you don't find what you're looking for, then you should leave the mafia. It's not a place for people to half-ass commitment.
[ He grows up to become a ho. Still doesn't really love after Oda and Ango. ]
So you admit I'm good at anything.
[ Aww Chuuya. ]
So you admit I'm good at anything.
[ Aww Chuuya. ]
I fully intend to take it seriously and aim for an executive spot, Chuuya.
[ Largely because he wants to pick his subordinates but also because it'll be a good place to make sure he's close to death. ]
[ Largely because he wants to pick his subordinates but also because it'll be a good place to make sure he's close to death. ]
You're good at things when you try. And don't let that praise go to your head.
[He'll have to cut down on future praise if Dazai is too much of a gremlin about it.]
[He'll have to cut down on future praise if Dazai is too much of a gremlin about it.]
Well I am too.
[Because he wants those files.]
Let's see who can get it first, then.
[Because he wants those files.]
Let's see who can get it first, then.
[ He'll plop down onto the pile of pillows and blankets. ]
Oh? Maybe we should make it interesting then. Whomever gets it first gets the other as an underling.
Oh? Maybe we should make it interesting then. Whomever gets it first gets the other as an underling.
[ He's been getting a steady diet of being fed after midnight so.... it's too late. The gremlin is growing stronger with each day. ]
Sure sure~ I'll just remember this as the day Chuuya said I was good at anything I try.
[ Grabbing the poem book though to flip through for another. ]
Sure sure~ I'll just remember this as the day Chuuya said I was good at anything I try.
[ Grabbing the poem book though to flip through for another. ]
[He should say no. He really should say no to that.
Luckily a memory happens and completely interrupts his train of thought!
The night seems darker with all of the lights in the area extinguished. So much damage has been done that there just isn't a way to power anything in the area anymore. And with how deep the crater is, it's difficult to see the rest of the city lights as well. All that exists of the world outside of the crater is a haze in the distance, and the bright moon overhead.
It's full, and impossible to look away from. No other thought enters his mind at the moment. He barely notices the sirens or the shouting, or the cries of those who weren't immediately killed by the blast.
All he sees is the moon, and he's left with a sense of wonder.
'Am I awake now? This can't be a dream anymore, right?'
To anyone else, he's a lost child who somehow survived a cataclysmic disaster. But to himself, he is the holder of great power, the waking of a consciousness that had been slumbering for a long, long time.
He is Chuuya. And he exists now.
What a memory to share, huh?]
Luckily a memory happens and completely interrupts his train of thought!
The night seems darker with all of the lights in the area extinguished. So much damage has been done that there just isn't a way to power anything in the area anymore. And with how deep the crater is, it's difficult to see the rest of the city lights as well. All that exists of the world outside of the crater is a haze in the distance, and the bright moon overhead.
It's full, and impossible to look away from. No other thought enters his mind at the moment. He barely notices the sirens or the shouting, or the cries of those who weren't immediately killed by the blast.
All he sees is the moon, and he's left with a sense of wonder.
'Am I awake now? This can't be a dream anymore, right?'
To anyone else, he's a lost child who somehow survived a cataclysmic disaster. But to himself, he is the holder of great power, the waking of a consciousness that had been slumbering for a long, long time.
He is Chuuya. And he exists now.
What a memory to share, huh?]
[ That's quite the memory. He's seen how the crater looks after that moment, but never seen what it looked like at that time. There's almost something beautiful about it, because it's when Chuuya became Chuuya amidst all of that destruction.
It's when Chuuya saw the night sky for the first time. That sense of wonder is something foreign for him, and he can't help feel a tiny bit envious that his partner- or whatever he is, could actually feel such things.
Looking at the other for a moment before he waves for him to come join him on the blanket pillow pile. For once, he's quiet though. ]
It's when Chuuya saw the night sky for the first time. That sense of wonder is something foreign for him, and he can't help feel a tiny bit envious that his partner- or whatever he is, could actually feel such things.
Looking at the other for a moment before he waves for him to come join him on the blanket pillow pile. For once, he's quiet though. ]
[...well okay.
Seeing memories of the past like that really suck, and he could use being in an enclosed space for a bit to calm down.]
That was the first thing I ever saw, you know.
Seeing memories of the past like that really suck, and he could use being in an enclosed space for a bit to calm down.]
That was the first thing I ever saw, you know.
[ Dazai just keeps pulling him around. Once he's settled down, he's grabbing one of the blankets to pull it over them both. He tries to look like a gremlin as he does, but it doesn't quite reach his eyes like it usually does. Time to make their own blanket fort, but maybe after whatever it is passes.
It's weird to be considerate especially to Chuuya, but... he knows this might be touching something vulnerable in the red head. ]
What did you do after that?
It's weird to be considerate especially to Chuuya, but... he knows this might be touching something vulnerable in the red head. ]
What did you do after that?
[ He's just going to nudge at Chuuya to follow after him. After everything that happened from today alone and people in their circle getting hurt... well, he's feeling rather worn out and is sure the other probably needs a break or relief of some kind. Let's go back to the room. /o/ ]
[BACK TO THE ROOM IT IS! And Chuuya is cranky as fuck after seeing everything that happened.]
What?
[He's cranky and not really up for conversation.]
What?
[He's cranky and not really up for conversation.]
[ When your doggo is cranky. ]
There's too many people crowding around.
[ He's not going to admit it's because the other is cranky. Just going to plop on the bed. ]
There's too many people crowding around.
[ He's not going to admit it's because the other is cranky. Just going to plop on the bed. ]
...yeah. There are.
[He'll just lean against a wall, then.]
I guess we're sticking together tonight, then. Should I come over to your room?
[He'll just lean against a wall, then.]
I guess we're sticking together tonight, then. Should I come over to your room?
[ Don't be a wall decoration. ]
Hai hai. Might as well, huh? [ It would feel...empty without him anyways. ]
Chuu-ya~ Do you want to do something?
Hai hai. Might as well, huh? [ It would feel...empty without him anyways. ]
Chuu-ya~ Do you want to do something?
[Oh. That sure is a blanket.
Part of Chuuya wants to shove Dazai away. But part of him actually wants the physical comfort, and Dazai is there, so...]
Walked around for a bit, until I found the Sheep. It's not like I sprang to life knowing everything, I was just a confused kid back then.
Part of Chuuya wants to shove Dazai away. But part of him actually wants the physical comfort, and Dazai is there, so...]
Walked around for a bit, until I found the Sheep. It's not like I sprang to life knowing everything, I was just a confused kid back then.
Yeah, might as well.
...and maybe. What did you want to do?
...and maybe. What did you want to do?
[ He doesn't answer at first. Reaching over for a pillow to put in his lap, as he looks to the floor.
Then he hurls it at the other at full force. ]
Then he hurls it at the other at full force. ]
[ It's like a cloth hug from your rival. He's keeping his hands on the blanket, because he doesn't know what to even do with them.
Walk around for a bit in all of that though. Chuuya had to physically seven at the time and new to all the things. He was probably with the Sheep or at least the original members for a while, which explains why he was loyal or even let them use him.
Letting go of the blanket to put a hand on Chuuya's shoulder. He isn't sure how to hug yet or is even sure if that's what he wants to do in this moment. He has no regret at all for pushing the dominoes that ended with Chuuya in the Mafia. But they were important and he can tell Chuuya might want some measure of comfort or affection here. ]
Do you ever regret being brought out from the darkness?
Walk around for a bit in all of that though. Chuuya had to physically seven at the time and new to all the things. He was probably with the Sheep or at least the original members for a while, which explains why he was loyal or even let them use him.
Letting go of the blanket to put a hand on Chuuya's shoulder. He isn't sure how to hug yet or is even sure if that's what he wants to do in this moment. He has no regret at all for pushing the dominoes that ended with Chuuya in the Mafia. But they were important and he can tell Chuuya might want some measure of comfort or affection here. ]
Do you ever regret being brought out from the darkness?
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